winding down

It's getting down to the end of the line for me. My shows will be over soon, I perform two this weekend and then the following weekend i'll be singing at a wedding and starting our run of "Deadly Murders". Not a moment too soon. I am exhausted. Between learning lines, rehearsing, and work I can't even sleep well. nightmares, time restraint on sleeping, yada yada yada. So today I wake up, and the first words out of my mouth  were damn that can NOT be the alarm already. Of course there was no one there to hear my ramblings so I fought my way out of bed and into another day of work... I believe it can be proven that working before 7 in the morning is hazerdous to your health and should be outlawed in the state of North Carolina...  but i digress. Shows are coming up, hope to see you guys there. Weekend before and weekend of Halloween for Deadly Murders, starring Kyran Packard for those of you familiar with the local group of us, Co starring Sean Whitworth and myself. And this weekend coming up will be the season opener. Free to all at the arts council on Washington Street in Shelby. I'll be in a couple of small skits, and may have a beverage or two...  Until next time.

round and round

I've been going through a lot of things lately as most of you already know. The first show of the season, well full length show at least, is coming along nicely, and I think people will see a side of me they have never seen before. Being someone different every time I step on stage is something I pride myself in, and I can definitely say, i've never been this guy.  The season opener stuff, i've barely had a chance to look at... good thing they are short and I should be able to learn them with minimal effort.
My boss recently married, and has been away from the store. So that's been hectic, working extra hours and doing the show... Life is good for the most part. However I have been having some horrific nightmares. I was in a house, my friend Michael and I were watching a man push his daughter on a swing, then his wife walks outside, and without warning the man pulls out a gun and blows his daughter's brains out. I was horrified, in total shock, then he turns the gun on his wife. After finally getting my shit together I tell my friend Michael to leave, I was going to distract the man and hopefully get some help for his wife who i wasn't sure was even still alive. At this point the man turns his attention to me, he walks in the house and looks in me and to my surprise I see my own eyes staring back at me. I'm older, and physically a little different, slimmer, paler, but the eyes and expression give it away, it's then I wake up.
Dream 2 had me lying on a bed with a back ache, and someone who was I assume my girlfriend was giving me a back rub, then she pulls out a hair dryer and starts putting it to my hair.... and I pushed her off of me into a tub of water, electrocuting her... I sat there and watch her convulse, smiling and laughing, until the life was out of her eyes.... And last night... well I won't even get into that, let's just say it was worse and leave it at that. I don't get spooked easily, horror movies and things don't affect me... but i'm rattled.  I see this person, like a ghost laughing at me controlling these things, enjoying my misery. It sounds crazy, even Halloweenish, maybe the ghouls have got to me lol. Or maybe i'm just losing it... either way, what doesn't kill us makes us stronger they always say. Hope to see you all at the show.