round and round

I've been going through a lot of things lately as most of you already know. The first show of the season, well full length show at least, is coming along nicely, and I think people will see a side of me they have never seen before. Being someone different every time I step on stage is something I pride myself in, and I can definitely say, i've never been this guy.  The season opener stuff, i've barely had a chance to look at... good thing they are short and I should be able to learn them with minimal effort.
My boss recently married, and has been away from the store. So that's been hectic, working extra hours and doing the show... Life is good for the most part. However I have been having some horrific nightmares. I was in a house, my friend Michael and I were watching a man push his daughter on a swing, then his wife walks outside, and without warning the man pulls out a gun and blows his daughter's brains out. I was horrified, in total shock, then he turns the gun on his wife. After finally getting my shit together I tell my friend Michael to leave, I was going to distract the man and hopefully get some help for his wife who i wasn't sure was even still alive. At this point the man turns his attention to me, he walks in the house and looks in me and to my surprise I see my own eyes staring back at me. I'm older, and physically a little different, slimmer, paler, but the eyes and expression give it away, it's then I wake up.
Dream 2 had me lying on a bed with a back ache, and someone who was I assume my girlfriend was giving me a back rub, then she pulls out a hair dryer and starts putting it to my hair.... and I pushed her off of me into a tub of water, electrocuting her... I sat there and watch her convulse, smiling and laughing, until the life was out of her eyes.... And last night... well I won't even get into that, let's just say it was worse and leave it at that. I don't get spooked easily, horror movies and things don't affect me... but i'm rattled.  I see this person, like a ghost laughing at me controlling these things, enjoying my misery. It sounds crazy, even Halloweenish, maybe the ghouls have got to me lol. Or maybe i'm just losing it... either way, what doesn't kill us makes us stronger they always say. Hope to see you all at the show.