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In my life I've seen thing I never dreamed I'd see. Magnificent things and horrible things. I've watched the sun rise over the ocean, I've seen the sun set behind a mountain. I've seen Rainbows that were so bright they almost blind you. I've watched someone I love waste away and die from alcoholism, I've seen someone else I love fight and thus far win his battle with cancer. I've seen shows that made me laugh. I've heard the laughter, and applause of hundreds who enjoyed something I've done. I've traveled to huge cities and beautiful country sides. I've made friends that have truly been there for me from the time I met them who I could call upon to this day. I've felt the pain flowing through songs into the very depths of my soul.  I've witnessed the unexplained, I've seen optical illusions that will make you question the laws of physics. I've climbed a mountain and sat on it's cliff to watch the sun go down over a city. I've read books that made me question my faith, and I've read books that strengthen my faith. I've been cheated on, lied to, and led astray, and I've been loved and shown kindness from strangers.If I were to combine all the emotions I've felt I could hold them in my heart and feel full of life... As great as all those emotions are when I think about what it felt like to be in love, to hold that person I thought was going to be my forever, they fall short of one day with her. So while I may never have my forever I'll at least know what it felt like, because that is a feeling that even time can't erase.