A new leaf

   I've recently been looking up about things. Call it a renewed faith, or a dose of self confidence; whatever the case my be it's a nice change of pace. I have been in such a depressed funk as of late... And while being heartbroken had a lot to do with it, that wasn't the whole story. I've had tons of stuff going on in life, some i'd rather not share or even make mention of, that had me feeling pretty low. I've done things, and tried things, that I'm not proud of. So while it's not a new year, I still would like to make a small resolution, I resolve to get back to being me. I like me, or I used to at least; and i'm starting to again. I got to be with Michelle by being me, and i'll get to that point of my life where i'm happy again by being me...  I've had this eternal battle with myself and for what? Sure I've made mistakes but who hasn't for goodness sake?  The way I got to this point was by not being myself, and even if I do say so myself is a pretty awesome person. Writing; is something I love doing and want to get back to it... Don't worry that doesn't mean i'll post nightly blogs so that you're bored about the current events of the internal search for oneness I seem to be going through... But it does mean that i'm hoping my notebooks will get full.  i'm going to finish up with my current show and maybe try out a show somewhere else...  I may never make it to broadway, but there are other options out there. And what's the worst that can happen? I get turned down for a part? Been there done that.... But at least I can say I tried. I have great friends... the four of you that i know read this of course...I love you guys all, a couple of you I have seen through some really hard times... maybe I wasn't the rock you needed, nor did I have all the answers, but I was there... and the other two,  our friendships are somewhat new and renewed.  And to all my other friends, keep your fingers crossed for me... there's definately a storm brewing.